Meeting Mike and JayCee + Insecurities

I have been on a "meet and greet" streak this year - meeting a handful of people I've befriended over different social networks. I've known Mike (@mikelouie_) for over a decade and finally just met him along with JayCee (@djrychuu) who I've known for about a year. Personally, it didn't feel like meeting them for the first time. Probably because I have interacted with them so much via the internet. So anyways, we grabbed lunch at the Westfield San Francisco Mall and were going to casually shoot around SF. Mike did an awesome job, especially since he ventured out from what he usually focuses on which is landscape photography. Click on his name to visit his website and check out his work! His website will open in another tab.

Now you're probably wondering what kind of insecurities I had this day. For one, when I meet someone that I've known via the web first, I'm always nervous that I might not meet their expectations (whatever that may be) and end up disappointing them. I don't feel like I try to pretend to be more than I am or try to portray myself differently online. It mostly stems from not wanting to disappoint someone I hold in high regard.

The second insecurity I had was something that unexpectedly came up. JayCee had randomly invited Cass (@badcass__) halfway through our day. I've never met or talked to her before. I am not opposed to meeting new people, but I become very shy. JayCee had no idea and probably still doesn't unless he reads this, lol! We picked her up right as we were going to find a place to shoot around SF. I was a little apprehensive when I saw her walking towards the car. Her outfit was so well put together and she looked so cute! And then here I was, wearing a dress I got 7 years ago and boots from 5 years ago. Made me wish I would've put a little a more effort into my outfit, but it was the eclipse that day and I was watching it with my boyfriend on NASA's livestream so I didn't have time. On top of that, I don't have quite the clothes selection I had before I moved into this apartment.

Honestly, I wasn't as comfortable at the mini photoshoot as I could be. Although I shouldn't have, I felt awkward posing in front of, Cass, someone who has such a following on Instagram. She was really nice and I'm glad I met her however! Her style is impeccable and she even makes her own clothes. Totally wish I knew how to sew. But if you get a chance, definitely check her out as well.

Ultimately though, if someone I didn't know doesn't end up liking me, I really don't care so I don't know why I get so shy and anxious when meeting new people. But it's definitely not as bad as when I was a young child. My parents said whenever someone I didn't know said hi to me, I would start crying and that I would always hide behind either one of them, lol.

Until next time!

xx, Elsie

Instagram Links:

Mike | JayCee | Cass